I quit

Well, I said I'd drop my Pepsi when I hit my first plateau. Officially, I'm still losing weight - although it is much slower than it had been. The Pepsi is just one of the high-calorie choices I've been making lately, but  if I can eliminate it that's automatically 150 calories less a day. Not much, but every little bit helps.  My One A Day Energy multivitamin claims to have as much caffeine as a cup of coffee. I don't know how that compares to soda, but I'm feeling that it's less. Already my head is a bit foggy if not quite achey and I'm only an hour overdo for my buzz.  So . . . we'll see how it goes. I have Tylenol, and No-Doz, and exercise to keep me going. Speaking of which, I better get out and go to the gym before I fall back to sleep!

My true inspiration for this latest endeavor is my IRL friend Jodi. She's been struggling to quit smoking. Nicotine is said to me much more addictive than caffeine. I've done this before. I can do it again. Prepare for the whining.

Hot 100 Update: embrace failure

I'm not really embracing it, but besides my outstanding job on fruit  lately, I've not been doing well on my Hot 100 goals. I am so sleepy all the time that I'm usually in bed by 10 pm anyway but if i nap too much during the day I am up reading until midnight. I've been playing  around. Exercising - bah! eating when I'm not hungry, YOU BET!  playing around losing and gaining the same five pounds? Great fun! Bloggin 2x daily? I missed a whole day and nobody noticed so why bother? Chores? whatev.  The good news is I have a Dr. appointment first thing Monday morning and that'll prolly get me going. I HAVE made some progress since I saw her 2 months ago. . . I think. And I'll ask her all about what kinds of supplements she recommends to make sure they don't interact with anything i'm already taking.

Nothing really pushed me into this rut and I'll find my way out soon enough. The only explanation I have is that I was really REALLY close to weighing less than Sweetie. When I can truck along fine for a long while but when I notice I'm close to a goal, and especially if I say it to anybody out loud - then it's like the expectation is there that I will meet it quickly and my inner child or whoever rebels against it. Every time I think I have it figured out, then I just stop caring.  I haven't even been reading blogs much. had a great book to read, though.  I'll have a review for that prolly later.  I haven't even updated my Shelfari yet. I think I need to reread Women Food and God!

And so there ya have it. I'm all "why bother?" right now. Eating for fun, sleeping even more, exercising hardly at all . ..  but I am still weighing in every morning which is the only thing that's kept me within that 5 lb range - I'm sure of it.

What I miss the most right now . . .

Is energy.

Either I walked into a brick wall late this morning, or I'm coming down with the flu.

Sudden onset, sore throat, fever, runny nose, and sudden fatigue . . .

Some bitch brought chocolate into our house today. Oh yeah, that was me. I'm the bitch. Must've been the fever. Well that doesn't mean I have to eat it, right?

Weather Woes and back to work

Wow. Big storms apparently blew through near us today, but I missed all of it except for the warnings.

Sweetie came home for lunch as  usual and that's when the rain started coming down. The rythm of the falling rain didn't tell me what a fool I was being. I wish it had. Instead it sang me a nice lullaby. I laid down on the sofa after I ate and the next thing I knew it was time to wait for kiddo's bus. 

That 2 hour nap isn't keeping me up late tonight though. I'm sleeeepy anyway. Why? Because it never occurred to me until just now that I didn't make time to exercise today. or yesterday.  So quickly I can get off track, depressed, and out of my routine.

Tomorrow - I'm kicking butt on exercise. I'm gonna try for an hour of cardio (2 sessions of 30 minutes) and also work on balance for a bit.