I feel like the haze is lifting a little.
Not a thick fog
Almost not noticeable at all really
More of a film
Through which I was viewing worlds
My own life
But I'm clearing off the lens now
And remembering
It's okay if I don't have specific goals
Numbers and dates
They are not measurements of my success
Or worth
Resolutions are not my style or nature
Progress
Continuous improvement slow and steady
On a daily basis
Meaningful memories linked one to another
Forming life
To eat a little healthier and move a little more
Every Day
To learn more about myself and the world
And love
To live with compassion, forgiveness, and truth
Is valuable
Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts
Showing posts with label challenges. Show all posts
19 January 2011
31 December 2010
I didn't BLOW IT and Wrapping Up the HOT 100
Over 100 days ago I joined two challenges.
On Septmeber 15, Erika at "Fat Like Me" posted this gem. The gist of the challenge was to avoid undoing any of the hard work we'd accomplished this year by gaining the usual 5 to 15 holiday pounds. By losing 11.6 lbs, I have risen to the challenge! I believe that without the encouragement of bloggy friends like Erika and all of you, it would've been a struggle this year. Intuitive eating flew out the window some of the last few days, just as calorie counting would've. So many times I thought "screw this, I'm eating for fun today" but because of the challenges and my aversion to total public humiliation, I maintained the downward weight trend, even though the line on the chart leveled off a great deal towards the end.
Here are my Hot 100 Goals Set for the last 100 days of the year which happened to have coincided with the beginning of autumn.
Health: Go to bed by 10 pm nightly
About 95% of the time, I was successful with this goal. Even when I did my sleep study, I was tucked in an hour ahead of schedule because I am now so accustomed to it. Hopefully once treatment is in place, 10 pm will be the only time I go to bed - no more 9 am and 1 pm naps.
Nutrition: Eat more fruit!
Our good friend Patrick at Responsibility 199 was key in setting and achieving this goal. Although I rarely eat the 5 servings that I know make me feel the best, I am definitely improving and eating fruit on a daily basis. When we went to my mother's for Xmas, I was astounded by the lack of fruits and vegetables offered for the holiday meal and then I realized - they were never a part of my life growing up, either. Occasionally we'd have canned processed fruit and veggies but not as a general rule. Hmmm. back then I was on an all-carb high fat diet and I was thin as a rail, and yet I was active all the time. Something to think about, although clearly not a good ongoing plan! Thanks Patrick for getting me started on that!
Activity: Achieve BMI at or below 35
This is a goal that I should've never published. Putting deadlines and numbers together is almost certain to gaurantee failure when it comes to me. That must be some psychological impairment that I have that motivates me to rebel against numbers. Maybe I should learn more about "Avoidant Personality Disorder." Or, maybe it's better not to know. I think I'll avoid it for now. At any rate, my current BMI is
36.33. Obviously it doesnt agree with the BMI app on my phone, which I liked a lot better because it told me what I wanted to hear. Still, I'm sticking with the Wii Fit's calculations.
Accountability: Blog at least 2x daily
For me, this ended up not being a very realistic goal. I ended up having to choose between reading lots of blogs or posting my own. I have a ton of unfinished blog posts sitting in my dashboard now for upcoming posts because I'd start the 2nd daily post and then remember that I hadn't read a few of my favorites. Plus, the goal had a number tied to it. Always a bad idea when I'm me.
Pay it Forward: Encourage hubby to join the journey
I'm going to count myself as successful on this one despite the fact that he isn't on board. I can do that, because I did encourage him. Of course, I can't control his actions so I can't make him do what I think is best for him. I'll keep encouraging and one of these days I'll even let him know that I finally weigh less than him. However, I need that spread to be a little wider before I share that paticular secret. I'm very competitive like that.
Thanks everybody for your continued support, advice, and comraderie. I have lost a total of 57 pounds last year through practicing mindfulness. With that came a lot of learning about controlling my ongoing anxiety issues as well. I find myself entering 2011 not only 57 lbs lighter, but also taking being less fearful of doctors and people in general. I'm becoming the best me I can be, which is a continous process. Several months ago when I started reading my BIL's blog, it didn't occur to me that there were so many other weight loss blogs out on the interwebs, let alone that I would end the year learning from so many and publishing one of my one with over a hundred thirty followers!
Nobody knows what the next 365 days will bring. There will be successes and challenges, to be sure. We're all in this together, cheering one another on towards the goal of weighing less, living healthy lives, and making better choices. I'm confident we'll hear a lot more success stories, NSV's, weigh-ins, setbacks, injuries, excuses, meal plans, ideas, recipes, foibles, and maybe even a runner jogging into the side of a parked van here and there.
Peace!
On Septmeber 15, Erika at "Fat Like Me" posted this gem. The gist of the challenge was to avoid undoing any of the hard work we'd accomplished this year by gaining the usual 5 to 15 holiday pounds. By losing 11.6 lbs, I have risen to the challenge! I believe that without the encouragement of bloggy friends like Erika and all of you, it would've been a struggle this year. Intuitive eating flew out the window some of the last few days, just as calorie counting would've. So many times I thought "screw this, I'm eating for fun today" but because of the challenges and my aversion to total public humiliation, I maintained the downward weight trend, even though the line on the chart leveled off a great deal towards the end.
Here are my Hot 100 Goals Set for the last 100 days of the year which happened to have coincided with the beginning of autumn.
Health: Go to bed by 10 pm nightly
About 95% of the time, I was successful with this goal. Even when I did my sleep study, I was tucked in an hour ahead of schedule because I am now so accustomed to it. Hopefully once treatment is in place, 10 pm will be the only time I go to bed - no more 9 am and 1 pm naps.
Nutrition: Eat more fruit!
Our good friend Patrick at Responsibility 199 was key in setting and achieving this goal. Although I rarely eat the 5 servings that I know make me feel the best, I am definitely improving and eating fruit on a daily basis. When we went to my mother's for Xmas, I was astounded by the lack of fruits and vegetables offered for the holiday meal and then I realized - they were never a part of my life growing up, either. Occasionally we'd have canned processed fruit and veggies but not as a general rule. Hmmm. back then I was on an all-carb high fat diet and I was thin as a rail, and yet I was active all the time. Something to think about, although clearly not a good ongoing plan! Thanks Patrick for getting me started on that!
Activity: Achieve BMI at or below 35
This is a goal that I should've never published. Putting deadlines and numbers together is almost certain to gaurantee failure when it comes to me. That must be some psychological impairment that I have that motivates me to rebel against numbers. Maybe I should learn more about "Avoidant Personality Disorder." Or, maybe it's better not to know. I think I'll avoid it for now. At any rate, my current BMI is
36.33. Obviously it doesnt agree with the BMI app on my phone, which I liked a lot better because it told me what I wanted to hear. Still, I'm sticking with the Wii Fit's calculations.
Accountability: Blog at least 2x daily
For me, this ended up not being a very realistic goal. I ended up having to choose between reading lots of blogs or posting my own. I have a ton of unfinished blog posts sitting in my dashboard now for upcoming posts because I'd start the 2nd daily post and then remember that I hadn't read a few of my favorites. Plus, the goal had a number tied to it. Always a bad idea when I'm me.
Pay it Forward: Encourage hubby to join the journey
I'm going to count myself as successful on this one despite the fact that he isn't on board. I can do that, because I did encourage him. Of course, I can't control his actions so I can't make him do what I think is best for him. I'll keep encouraging and one of these days I'll even let him know that I finally weigh less than him. However, I need that spread to be a little wider before I share that paticular secret. I'm very competitive like that.
Thanks everybody for your continued support, advice, and comraderie. I have lost a total of 57 pounds last year through practicing mindfulness. With that came a lot of learning about controlling my ongoing anxiety issues as well. I find myself entering 2011 not only 57 lbs lighter, but also taking being less fearful of doctors and people in general. I'm becoming the best me I can be, which is a continous process. Several months ago when I started reading my BIL's blog, it didn't occur to me that there were so many other weight loss blogs out on the interwebs, let alone that I would end the year learning from so many and publishing one of my one with over a hundred thirty followers!
Nobody knows what the next 365 days will bring. There will be successes and challenges, to be sure. We're all in this together, cheering one another on towards the goal of weighing less, living healthy lives, and making better choices. I'm confident we'll hear a lot more success stories, NSV's, weigh-ins, setbacks, injuries, excuses, meal plans, ideas, recipes, foibles, and maybe even a runner jogging into the side of a parked van here and there.
Peace!
24 December 2010
Hot 100, updates, and 1 week to go
Week 2, day 3 of 200 squats and I completed 102 squats. Later I have to do the progress test to see how many I should do next week. I'm hoping I'll be able to move up a level. I think if I'd be more faithful with my fish oil supplements, my knees would allow more. I'm so glad I can (NSV) properly stretch my quads now, cuz they're gonna need it.
Hot 100 goals - what the heck were they?
Health: Go to bed by 10 pm nightly 50% success this
week but I was up past midnight last night w/o even realizing it.
Nutrition: Eat more fruit! I'd say probably about 50% success on this as well. I started out the week pretty good, but then I was sick sick sick and didn't eat much. I did have a banana for brekkie today though!
Activity: Achieve BMI at or below 35. It is currently at 35.4 according to the BMI calculator on my phone so I'm getting close! I have one more week to make it, but having lost 11 lbs so far on this challenge is good enough for me to say "I haven't blown it."
Accountability: Blog at least 2x daily
Major fail. I think I skipped 2 days this week altogether and only ended up blogging twice one day - yesterday. I'm ok with it. It can't be "all about me" this time of year and when I'm deeply depressed I don't feel like talking to anybody, even the blogosphere.
Pay it Forward: Encourage hubby to join the journey
He's hooked on video game currently (Sid Meier Civilization) so he's not too much into health and nutrition. That's ok. He's happy and I'm good with that. At least he's not sitting around stuffing his face with junk.
Hot 100 goals - what the heck were they?
Health: Go to bed by 10 pm nightly 50% success this
week but I was up past midnight last night w/o even realizing it.
Nutrition: Eat more fruit! I'd say probably about 50% success on this as well. I started out the week pretty good, but then I was sick sick sick and didn't eat much. I did have a banana for brekkie today though!
Activity: Achieve BMI at or below 35. It is currently at 35.4 according to the BMI calculator on my phone so I'm getting close! I have one more week to make it, but having lost 11 lbs so far on this challenge is good enough for me to say "I haven't blown it."
Accountability: Blog at least 2x daily
Major fail. I think I skipped 2 days this week altogether and only ended up blogging twice one day - yesterday. I'm ok with it. It can't be "all about me" this time of year and when I'm deeply depressed I don't feel like talking to anybody, even the blogosphere.
Pay it Forward: Encourage hubby to join the journey
He's hooked on video game currently (Sid Meier Civilization) so he's not too much into health and nutrition. That's ok. He's happy and I'm good with that. At least he's not sitting around stuffing his face with junk.
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