You are due for a ginormous butt-kicking.
Get yourself in gear and get moving. Exercise today. Practice what you preach. Eat only when you're hungry and eat good food. No junk. Move some more. Get out of this funk before it's too late. You're up 4 lbs due to your lack of mindfulness and trying this last week or so. You know how to do this. You know you CAN do this. Eating for fun will get those 50 lbs back and you don't want that. You're close to your 235 goal. I know you said you didn't need material rewards, but who the hell are you kidding? You get to 235 and we get an iPod. You know you want it.
Now, get going!