27 October 2010

I didn't wanna do it.

But I did.

I woke up this morning in my usual grumpy mood, weighed in (no change since yesterday) and started getting the fam ready for the day. Put kid on the bus and Sweetie was almost out to work. Usually I would wait until he's gone before I'd do anything, trying to stay out of his way.

Today was different. Today I decided I was just going to exercise instead of hanging around to be available  in case he "needed" me. I mean, really, he's almost 40 years old. I think he can get ready by himself.  So then, what to do? Well I didn't want to exercise or clean, that's for sure. Then I decided to think about what I'd say to BFF if she was having that attitude. So, I put in a load of laundry and turned on the Wii. I walked 1.2 miles in a half hour. I now have only 1,001 items left to build on my rythm island (Walk It Out).  I feel SO much better now. Hey you - yeah you, the one in the lousy mood! I'm talkin' to you! Go exercise for 10 minutes and see if it helps. I don't care if you don't wanna. Just do it.

I have a counselling appointment today but will probably call and cancel. I think that I can get more mental health through accomplishments like exercise and housework today and I don't have anything pressing to discuss. I don't think he'll miss me.  I can't tolerate the awkward silences while  he sits there and waits for me to come up with some crazy to talk about, not when I have so much I want to do and so little to talk about. There! I've justified it. Once a month is probably plenty for now.

Breakfast was my daily Pepsi and a sweet & salty granola bar. lunch will probably be a sandwich unless I get ahold of my friend to treat her for her birthday yesterday. I haven't seen her for a while and am jonesin' for some Nicole time! Even then, I will keep it light.


  1. Awkward silences suck. Have you seen anyone else? Maybe your therapist isn't a good "fit" for you?

  2. OH MY GOODNESS! You like this guy! Go see him!

  3. Good for you to get up and exercise (even when you didn't want to). Only you can decide when therapy isn't working or if you need to go less often. I think that takes a lot of self awareness from someone. Sounds like you are off to have a wonderful day!!!

  4. I agree with Jayne..I've been going to my counselor for 4 years and there's never an awkward silence. In fact, there's usually too much to talk about and we go over time. LOL It took me a LONG time to find the right person. A long long long time. It's important to find one that's a good fit.

    I'm really impressed that you got up and hopped to it this morning regardless of how you felt. Way to go!!

  5. Exercise does help get rid of that grumpy mood. I have recently had to change my program, because I was getting in a rut and "fudging" (no pun intended) too much with my food. And good for you going for the exercise. Our DH's can handle it.

  6. Woohoo! Congrats on going to exercise even though you didn't want to. Endorphins do wonders, don't they?



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