Lots of emotional personal stuff going on right now that threatens to take my focus off of my health goals. But I'm going to use the pain to fight the fat instead of feed the fat. That makes for less material to post because my brain is FULL of stuff that doesn't directly effect my health schmealth.
It's a sibling thing. Why won't these siblings just go away, I ask you? It involves a lie that was told over 20 years ago - but I just found out about it yesterday. You might wonder what difference something like that can make, but I guess that depends on the lie, doesn't it? I'll try to give the overview without a lot of detail and then welcome your feedback.
I've always known this sibling is a liar. But I thought there were limits. Apparently not so much. Yesterday on facebook I was chatting with a friend of my sibling. This friend informed me that said sibling had always told people that obvious appearance issues they suffered we a result of my violence when we were tweens. This is untrue. I've never been a violent person or attacked anybody with anything other than words. On a rare occasion I have defended myself but only in instances of extreme pain. But never would I have had the impulse or the strength to cause the damage alleged.
We were born in a small town (a little larger than Seymour, Indiana - feel free to hum that song all day). How many people were told this lie? How many people have believed it all these years and continue to do so? Does it explain why I always felt on the outs?
It doesn't change my life, really, at all. I have a beautiful family and a nice home and lots and lots of friends who love me for who I truly am. It WAS a long time ago. I understand the lie was out of jealousy and from a sick mind tortured from abuse. I really just don't know where to go from here. It doesn't justify ending a relationship with this person or acting out against them. I did write to them and received an apology which is more than I could've expected. Still, that doesn't undo the damage, does it?