I've not been having a good coupla days. Frustrated with a lot of things and there are so many things on my to-do list that I'd rather just avoid. Things don't seem to work out as I expect, I'm having some tooth pain, throbbish type, and I'm still pissed at the CPAP. I know I need to INSIST trying another mask. This one will work if it has a death grip on me, but it kills my nose and then I can't wear my glasses the whole next day. I guess my broken nose and weak chin just aren't the right shape. Great, why don't they just tell me I'm too ugly for their stupid machine? Dammit. when between all this other stuff I'm supposed to do, can I schedule an appt out there. Seems like I used to have a gym membership too.
But today has been a crazy day. 2 hour late start for school, missed the bus because he came 5 min earlier than expected. Kid left her snowboots at home and apparently didn't re-lock the front door after she opened it to see the bus pull away because the wind blew it open while I was taking her to school and waiting on yet another contractor that never showed up at the other house. Maybe they're afraid of the bad neighborhood? I hear there's been crime there. It's actually a sweet little hood with lots of families and elementary kids, so I'm just jokin. I'm funny like that. A laugh freakin riot today especially.
But guess what? i spent the day yesterday doing for others and today I feel like doing for me. I really want to sit and craft. Knit, stamp, create, wriet, blog, etc. but somebody has to do some chores around here. We have no drinking glasses clean. I've also gotta get dinner prepared to go into the oven because we've got girl scouts tonight and I know if I don't prep ahead then it's going to be too tempty to hit McDonalds on the way home.
And it's cold. Oh yeah, and scouts is outside tonight. stupid badge work. stupid $850 door replacement. stupid vanishing car title, stupid stupid stupid. Stupid's a bad word in our house. My kid once heard me say "that's so fucking stupid" to a friend on the phone and wouldn't talk to me for a few hours because I said "stupid".
dammit. bills to pay too. why can't I get my crap together these days? stupid.