snow day, temptation, and only losers gain

So, no school today. What a great blessing, my kid is sleeping in. I should too. I know sleep is the best way to get through this cold. Sleep and water. If school hadn't been cancelled, I'd be volunteering all day at school and church. Luckily when school closes, so does the church office. Yippee!

There is a lemon crumble pie in my kitchen. Oh.my.gawd. How did that happen?  So delish. So breakfasty. Kiddo said last night she wants to try something new with pancakes - crushing up pineapple and adding it to the batter. Real, fresh pineapple. Got it for a buck and a half yday at the fruit market. So yummy.  But the pie - it's already made. And there. and I'm HONGRY.

Biggest Loser was incredible last night. How can anybody gain 9 lbs in a week on the BL Ranch? I was totally expecting to find out that the scale was broken. I thought Jillian might cry. No such luck. Scary lady.

Only THREE WEEKS??

When Biggest Loser started this last season, I promised myself that next season - next season, there would be nobody on the show starting off with a lower weight than me.

Now Allison drops the bomb that the next season is only THREE WEEKS AWAY?? WHAT?!?!?!  I thought I had more time. I guess I"ve always thought I had more time. 

Twice the number of contestants next time, and 2 new trainers.

There are some REALLY large people on next season. I hope there are none lighter than me, but I've got to kick it into gear in the next 3 weeks and set the bar even lower.

This is the first season I've ever watched the whole way through. Usually I lose interet when they get lighter than me. Who wants to watch other people succeed, after all? Apparently, this new me does. I'm enjoying the finale and I won't spoil it for those of you who haven't seen it yet.

Enjoy!

Shopping & stuff

Well, it's gettin kinda chilly in NW Ohio these days and last year's coat is way too bulky on me now. I also noticed that bras are definitely in order, and some hoodies or cardigans would be good. I'm looking for inexpensive stuff to get me through this size and or maybe the next one down. I don't even care if they're a little snug at first - I know it won't last long.

I'm thinking "just my size" website. Any other suggestions? Anybody know any good coat sales?  Maybe I'll just do overstock.com again.

trying to shop online while I'm watching Biggest Loser. the strategies mess it up for me. That and the same scenes playing before and after the commercials. bah. These people better help me get inspired.

I can't believe I've done this to myself

"I can't believe I did this to myself" Brendan said on last night's Biggest Loser.

I have been saying that to myself over and over again. I've ruined my thyroid, my pancreas, my figure, my relationships, my future. And for what? Some bacon and alfredo sauce? WHAT? WTF?

And that is what motivates me to keep moving, keep working, keep weighing in, keep eating sensibly, taking in fewer calories, burning more calories, making good choices. Blogging my brains out. Reading reading READING to fill my head with information - sorting out the BS from what's valuable. Using the good stuff, pushing away the insanity. I am the only one responsible for taking care of this body and I intend to do a good job of it - not by punishing it with deprivation or extreme pain, but be doing what I've known all along I needed to do: Burn more calories than I consume.

Bob told Brendan, it's time to forgive yourelf for the damage that has already been done, and get to work on fixing things. Forgiveness, as previously discussed, is not my strong point, but I think I better work on it. Being angry at myself isn't going to burn fat. Working is!